사랑해요 ; Tears are the words my heart uses to explain. When even my fake smile can't cover up my pain.

info url: http://yoururl.bs.com title: The Shadow Of Death This skin was optimized for firefox& Google Chrome and is ~~yet to be tested~~ rather screwed on internet explorer but still operational. The layout was coded by Joanna Morales.	睡前的泪水总是含着想念. 真正的失败,是当我选择了放弃. 总有一天,我会习惯没有你的世界. 当你选择背着我的方向前进,我以别无选择. 我的人生不允许任何的遗憾,只能接受后悔的事实. 被你拥抱的温度还在,一边想着你,一边为了你泪流.
	Darling, i need you to know, Imperfection DO exist. 这是我的故事. 如果你坚持着你的版本,我没力气和你争执. 只有爱与光明能够拯救缺乏爱的小孩. 对我来说,黄昏是漂亮, 但它意味着一段感情的终点. Smile Because you don't have to explain why you're feeling sad.	Profile The Name Is Denise ❤ ♫ Is my life. 我是任性是固执的. 天黑了以后,我学会一个人过. 孤独的时候,我学会一个人到处去走走. 没有你,我依然能过得好好的. 当我孤独,伤心的时候,第一个想到的总会是你. Cravings ღ SMUDGE 'Warrior' & 'David' Tee ღ SMUDGE Wave 2 tees ღ Greedy Genius Shoes ღ RED / Black & Gold Skull Candy ღ Black & Red Checkered Tee ღ More Hoodies ღ Colour/Transparent Contact Lens ღ Treble Clef Necklace	date : Thursday, August 6, 2009 time : 9:59 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl Thanks for not talking to me so often anymore. Thanks for not helping me when i'm in need anymore. Thanks for not forcing me to tell you what exactly happened. Thanks... For making me realise, before i fall deep. thank you... sincerely thank you. 突然发现, 这一刻我不想念你了. 发现, 我并没有那么需要你. You'll know only when i get over it :] Labels: BLOG 文章, FEELING 心情 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << BY2的魔幻表演 date : Wednesday, August 5, 2009 time : 9:09 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl ewwww. OMG. effing disgusting eh. the worse singing i ever heard from miko eh. the guy's voice make miko have to deepen her voice. EWWW OMG! URGHHHH! i dun understand the "magic" actually. hahahhahas. at least in this video, yumi's voice so much nicer T_T but they no mo qi lol. >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << by2+2high date : time : 9:03 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl lol. the focus is on the boy. hahas. they look cute :3 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << Life In School date : time : 7:50 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl nahhh, ain't that emo today. cause venus cheered me up : D Do i call this wednesday blues. actually not really. but i've been flaring easily recently. ain't productive too, except that i completed my chinese hmwk. maybe due to the flu that irritates too much. and the tiredness that makes me dislike people who nags too much. First one in mind is surprisingly A Leong. hahahas. : D can't believe that we're having SEQ on fri. efffing. i'm pissed cause... i dun understand what she teaches. freak it. have to read on my own again. cold cold cold recently... maybe cause got flu bahhh. sadded. but i dun want to see doctor.. i dun want get mc.. somemore.. flu to me is so common. LMAO. anyway, Chicken didn't turn up for school today. ytd was sms-ing her while in causeway pt. felt a lil weird when she told me she was having afternoon nap. chicken dun take afternoon naps, she'll stick to her comp. that's chicken. then.. the next morning.. 7 +... she sms me.. i still sleeping. urgh T_T then she suddenly say she not going school caus eshe got fever. lol. then reach school liao, sms abit with her... the doctor gave her 6 days mc. and the reason is so retarded. It's cause she's young, she'll recover fast so the doc expect her to recover fully. LMAO hahas, good for her lah, since she's been hoping for a mc for don't know how many weeks. lol. ohhhm but the stupid thing is, if she get 6 days, means that. wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun, mon. like... among this 6 days... like fri we half day. sat sun mon no need go sku. LMAO can! today's lessons were boring. first was SS. which was like shit. he go through the worksheet.. and idk what, i forgot :3 then.. chem. hahas. he thought us something... to do with the cations and anions. lol. but i forgot, how? O_O" rmb abit only. hahahahas. then.. recess... went over to venus's class to find her... huijuan scared me. T^T nvm... eng lesson, jian xin scared me T_T tchhhh. was having group work for the formal report thingy.. then was feeling so bored. jian xin crapping with me and Ju... then i wanter to draw on his hand, cause we were given markers. hahahas. then.. at first he don't let.. i heard him say what "skin cancer" i was like, huh? skin cancer.. so obvious i wun believe right. hahas. so i just draw, he never stop me alr : D then idk what he said that nicholas got so agitated. then "fought" with JX. then.. he go sit on JX's hand. like.. oucccchhhh. then his hand.. as in.. the palm the on top. aiya, whatever. the whole thing turn red. at frist i din see mah. then i draw on the upper part of the hand... then he sleep me and JU draw like crap XDDDDD so fun. hahahahas. then.. after he woke up, realised his whole hand red red one. i chua tio can... ask him then he say he got skin allergy. OMG lah!. then... he was SCRAPING off the things we drew on his hand. then it got even redder, like bleeding like that. wa lao, he scare em like shit. then ask him stop scraping he dun want listen loh. ask him go toilet wash also dun want... then Ju take angel's nike bottle.. then put water on his hand then just rub away... omg.. scare me lah. his hand super duper red lorh T_T skipping pe tmr. wahahahhaa. no mc.. but really cause.. in my condition, it's super not suitable for having pe... if he force me to have pe, he shall hold all the responsibility if anything happens to me :] Labels: BLOG 文章, SCHOOL 学校 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << We Should Stop Here, Right Here... date : Monday, August 3, 2009 time : 9:15 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl I Don't Wish To Hope For More. I Don't Want To Hope For More. Being Friends Is Too Much For Now. I Just Wish you Could Disappear In My Life. I'm Sorry, It's my Fault, I Know I'm Being Selfish. But I Just Don't Wanna Let You Know. I Don't Want To Have Any Conversations. I Don't Want To Have any Eye Contacts. Can Everything Just End Here. At Least It Wouldn't Be That Painful. We Used To Be So Fine When you Walked Into My Life. Until I Realise Loving You Was So Wrong. My Emotions' All Mixed up recently. I can change my mood so easily. even within a second. This moment, i'm laughing and joking around, the next moment, i'm, emo-ing. and i get sick of it when chicken keep saying "EMOOOOO~ EMOOOO~" idk. i know its not her fault. but i just feel weird. thats why i didn't scold her. i know it's my wrong... I Know she's been tolerating abit on my attitude... Thank her for that, since she doesn't knwo what is going on. oh fine, no one knows except for myself. i was so-wondering today if it was those emotions that accumulated over the weekends or was it plainly just for that bad bad bad piece of news. i was hoping-since the weekends- that there wouldn't be any remedials on the coming thursday. and i was so lucky that, everything went against my wish. and so mr heng, better known as nagasaki in my sec2 life [he can take jokes right?], was talking about remedials shit. he mentioned he had a remedial slot with us this week. so he went over to the notice board to check. so i was trying to predict where he was pointing to. bad eyesight, can tsee so accurately.. then he stopped at somewhere near wed, thurs, fri. so i was praying hard he isn't pointing to thurs. AH HUH! I all of a sudden became future-teller or something. it is really thurs. my first reaction was. "OH MY FUUUUck!" and i started kicking like a baby throwing tantrum. i was like effing pissed can... then, realised we are having australian maths competition. and so mr heng was like saying "but mine is compulsory leh" and we shoot him back the same ans. LOL. haiz... but the competition until 3:15 leh. IDK WHY, DON'T ASK ME WHY, I had the urge to cry when i heard that he's having his remedials. it's like.. more and more problems piling up, my heart can't take too much. pissed off you see, i was actually smiling before he announced that piece of OH-SO-GOOD news. note the sacarsm. i guess my mood sort of affected my eng CT. yes, it definitely did. i was more of sad than pissed off. but i looked pissed off i guess... idk idk idk. i really really really dunno. i hate it... it's been really long since i last saw wayne. cant they just let me off this time round ?! don't they understand that when you miss someone too much, you go a lil bit crazy? urgggh, i'm so pissed. don't they understand that when a person's mood get better, the results would be better? OH lord, don't they understand those? rawwwrrrr. i'm blowing mad. firstly, there's pe on thurs. then got australian maths competition. then got remedial. OH MY GUAN YIN MA. so everything's preventing me from going after wayne? even just to let me take A LOOK at him? oh please. it's just one look. can't they just let me off? Don't the understand how much i miss him? oh i forgot, they really don't. they don't suffer my pain. shucks, i should stop here. since there's so much more things. don't feel like continueing... their so private. LMAO. Checking out Brandon Chang's blog. hoping to find some UNIQUE pictures. X3 let see who understands LOL! i found someone so good to talk to. feel like i can throw up all my problems and emotions at him. feel like he can share them with me. but its so coincidence... he's the one. everyone in the world. why must it be him? found someone i could talk to. yes, he is the one. but the problem is... of all, he's the one who isn't supposed to know. Guess i'm left with myself. Labels: BLOG 文章, FEELING 心情, Wayne 俊傑 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date :* Sunday, August 2, 2009 time : 6:59 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl Everyone's asking.. Why Your DP so emo. How they expect me to answer? especially when you asked me. And its you who asked me the most about it.. idk, idk, idk, i really don't know... So what if you understand me... Cause i said i'm never gonna let you know.. Labels: BLOG 文章, FEELING 心情 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << 林俊傑PK柯有綸(2人拍親密大頭貼) date : time : 3:50 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl UHHH! NO FAIR! I WANT! I WANT REPLACE ALAN KUO! AHHHHHH! T^T DDDD: I JEALOUS! I SAD! URGHHHH! AHHHHH! >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << 林俊傑在後台脫褲子(絕對看到內褲) date : time : 3:39 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl HAHHAH! OMG! LMAO! HAHAHHAHAHAHS! LOL! HAHAHHAHAHHAAS! >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date : Saturday, August 1, 2009 time : 3:04 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl 为何今晚偶像剧要停播为何总有挤不完的痘痘喔为何这包包跟她们背的花样不同我的多啦ㄟ梦何时会来救我别让我烦脑吃了什么之后会变胖会变更丑祈祷我的追求者不是猪头祈祷我的他偏偏也暗恋着我烂桃花是否太多太多需要算一算面相和星座祈祷我的偶像不再乱拍拖我要的新鞋刚好有人送我祈祷我不会太快长大我还有太多未完成的梦 LOL, this lyrics is like.. talking about what teenagers think. except for the last sentence, some agree, some don't. hahas. anw, this song is also by BY2.. and its called 新少女祈祷. LMAO. BY2 = 白兔 = By The 2 of them = BAI 2 [their surname is BAI]. isn't this cool? HAHAs, i figured out this on my own lah. the BAI TU is from the buy buy buy MV. saw a white rabbit, which looked like a Peace sign[V], which is a rabbit, beside their name, BY2. hahas. OMG, i just found out something. 两人的语言让人惊奇：华语（标准音，粤语，闽南语）、英语、韩语、日语、菲律宾语、马来语、印地语、泰国语、藏语、肯尼亚语、阿拉伯语、俄语。omg, that means.. they know all these languages?! OH MY MAMA! MAKE ME FEE SO STUPID! T^T 小时候：帮梁咏琪的《胆小鬼》伴舞, wahhh, so cool! hahas. Labels: BLOG 文章, BY2 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date : time : 2:10 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl Recently got addicted to BY2's songs. LMAO. i have no idea why. like... it's quite a few... DNA, 新少女祈祷, Don't Go Away, 买买买, 勇敢. ROFL. : D didn't really like the chinese version of dont go away at first. tried listening to the english version and i fell in love with it. LMAO. DONT~~~ DONT Go AWAY~~~ LOL.i love the lyrics. especially the starting. hahas. Looking through your eyes，theres nothing to hide And youre no longer mine How could I survive when you say goodbye Why do birds still fly up high？ Cant stop the tears from fallin We used to be so fine when you walked into my life I tried to reach out for you just to be with you My heart is breakin Dont Dont go away Baby, dont you know，I miss you so Dont Dont go away Ive never been on my own before Wooh Oh Cant you hear me just take me with you So dont dont go away Dont Dont go away Baby, dont you know，I miss you so Dont Dont go away Ive never been on my own before So wont you feel my heartbeat once more yeaha, its nice : } Someone made me sad. Someone disappointed me. idk what that someone is thinking. i'm effing pissed at that someone. why is that someone always like that. someone loves giving me hope and crashing it the day after. Someone makes me emo. Emo makes me think of my past. Emo makes me think of him. Knowing that Loving him is wrong, i just can't control it. I just hope if one day, we could be total strangers. I just hope that you could hurt me, [emotionally/physically, i dun care] so that i could stop loving you. And if between both of us, there's one who'll get hurt, make sure its me. Can't stop my tears from falling. We used to be so fined when u walked into my life. Until i started to fall for you, when life really changed, for me. I don't wanna try. I just wish that you wouldn't find out... Forever and ever. Babe, What If I Can't Stop Loving You, And You Had To Go ? Labels: BLOG 文章, FEELING 心情 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << JJ 林俊杰 2009 concert- 绯闻 date : time : 1:47 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl AWWWWWWW, i miss this so much. hahaas, freaking cool can! LOL. he so cute lah! but i scared if got concert DVD, they will cut this part loh. T^T >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << 090603 BY2-DNA 小黑老師 date : time : 12:59 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl lol, this is cool. hahahas. >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE <<	Archives By month: April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 Recently By post : Thanks for not talking to me so often anymore.Than... BY2的魔幻表演 by2+2high Life In School We Should Stop Here, Right Here... Everyone's asking..Why Your DP so emo.How they exp... 林俊傑PK柯有綸(2人拍親密大頭貼) 林俊傑在後台脫褲子(絕對看到內褲) 为何今晚偶像剧要停播为何总有挤不完的痘痘喔为何这包包跟她们背的花样不同我的多啦ㄟ梦何时会来救我别让我... Recently got addicted to BY2's songs. LMAO. i have...	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Bribe Me with a SMUDGE tee and you'll get my number. I Don't appreciate insults too. This is my Life, i own it, i live it. Memories are those to be kept deep in the heart, it need not always be shared. 没有人有资格批评我的人生.