I Don't Wish To Hope For More.

I Don't Want To Hope For More.

Being Friends Is Too Much For Now.

I Just Wish you Could Disappear In My Life.

I'm Sorry, It's my Fault, I Know I'm Being Selfish.

But I Just Don't Wanna Let You Know.

I Don't Want To Have Any Conversations.

I Don't Want To Have any Eye Contacts.

Can Everything Just End Here.

At Least It Wouldn't Be That Painful.

We Used To Be So Fine When you Walked Into My Life.

Until I Realise Loving You Was So Wrong.

My Emotions' All Mixed up recently. I can change my mood so easily. even within a second. This moment, i'm laughing and joking around, the next moment, i'm, emo-ing. and i get sick of it when chicken keep saying "EMOOOOO~ EMOOOO~" idk. i know its not her fault. but i just feel weird. thats why i didn't scold her. i know it's my wrong... I Know she's been tolerating abit on my attitude... Thank her for that, since she doesn't knwo what is going on. oh fine, no one knows except for myself. i was so-wondering today if it was those emotions that accumulated over the weekends or was it plainly just for that bad bad bad piece of news. i was hoping-since the weekends- that there wouldn't be any remedials on the coming thursday. and i was so lucky that, everything went against my wish. and so mr heng, better known as nagasaki in my sec2 life [he can take jokes right?], was talking about remedials shit. he mentioned he had a remedial slot with us this week. so he went over to the notice board to check. so i was trying to predict where he was pointing to. bad eyesight, can tsee so accurately.. then he stopped at somewhere near wed, thurs, fri. so i was praying hard he isn't pointing to thurs. AH HUH! I all of a sudden became future-teller or something. it is really thurs. my first reaction was. "OH MY FUUUUck!" and i started kicking like a baby throwing tantrum. i was like effing pissed can... then, realised we are having australian maths competition. and so mr heng was like saying "but mine is compulsory leh" and we shoot him back the same ans. LOL. haiz... but the competition until 3:15 leh.

IDK WHY, DON'T ASK ME WHY, I had the urge to cry when i heard that he's having his remedials. it's like.. more and more problems piling up, my heart can't take too much. pissed off you see, i was actually smiling before he announced that piece of OH-SO-GOOD news. *note the sacarsm. i guess my mood sort of affected my eng CT. yes, it definitely did. i was more of sad than pissed off. but i looked pissed off i guess... idk idk idk. i really really really dunno. i hate it... it's been really long since i last saw wayne. cant they just let me off this time round ?! don't they understand that when you miss someone too much, you go a lil bit crazy? urgggh, i'm so pissed. don't they understand that when a person's mood get better, the results would be better? OH lord, don't they understand those? rawwwrrrr. i'm blowing mad. firstly, there's pe on thurs. then got australian maths competition. then got remedial. OH MY GUAN YIN MA. so everything's preventing me from going after wayne? even just to let me take A LOOK at him? oh please. it's just one look. can't they just let me off? Don't the understand how much i miss him? oh i forgot, they really don't. they don't suffer my pain. shucks, i should stop here. since there's so much more things. don't feel like continueing... their so private. LMAO. Checking out Brandon Chang's blog. hoping to find some UNIQUE pictures. X3 let see who understands LOL!

i found someone so good to talk to.

feel like i can throw up all my problems and emotions at him.

feel like he can share them with me.

but its so coincidence... he's the one.

everyone in the world. why must it be him?

found someone i could talk to.

yes, he is the one.

but the problem is...

of all, he's the one who isn't supposed to know.

Guess i'm left with myself.