사랑해요 ; Tears are the words my heart uses to explain. When even my fake smile can't cover up my pain.

info url: http://yoururl.bs.com title: The Shadow Of Death This skin was optimized for firefox& Google Chrome and is ~~yet to be tested~~ rather screwed on internet explorer but still operational. The layout was coded by Joanna Morales.	睡前的泪水总是含着想念. 真正的失败,是当我选择了放弃. 总有一天,我会习惯没有你的世界. 当你选择背着我的方向前进,我以别无选择. 我的人生不允许任何的遗憾,只能接受后悔的事实. 被你拥抱的温度还在,一边想着你,一边为了你泪流.
	Darling, i need you to know, Imperfection DO exist. 这是我的故事. 如果你坚持着你的版本,我没力气和你争执. 只有爱与光明能够拯救缺乏爱的小孩. 对我来说,黄昏是漂亮, 但它意味着一段感情的终点. Smile Because you don't have to explain why you're feeling sad.	Profile The Name Is Denise ❤ ♫ Is my life. 我是任性是固执的. 天黑了以后,我学会一个人过. 孤独的时候,我学会一个人到处去走走. 没有你,我依然能过得好好的. 当我孤独,伤心的时候,第一个想到的总会是你. Cravings ღ SMUDGE 'Warrior' & 'David' Tee ღ SMUDGE Wave 2 tees ღ Greedy Genius Shoes ღ RED / Black & Gold Skull Candy ღ Black & Red Checkered Tee ღ More Hoodies ღ Colour/Transparent Contact Lens ღ Treble Clef Necklace	date : Sunday, May 31, 2009 time : 6:36 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl At times in life, you'll never know where you're heading to. i miss having the carefree life, i really do. i miss having not to worry about much things. i miss the days... i hate when people attempts to hurt me. i hate it when i start to wish. i hate it when i expect something out of it. it never turns out the way i wanted. There's no turning back, when you took a step wrong in your life. why? i don't understand why. When i start to trust one, he/she will always prove to me that i'm wrong. totally wrong. when i start not to trust one, one will prove to me that he/she is trust-able. what's wrong with life. Did i take the wrong step? can i even turn back? You know i hate it when someone lies to me. you know i hate it when someone backs out all of a sudden. you know i hate it when someone treats me especially good. But no one knows, how my shadow looks like. how my past hurts. i don't blame anyone. cause never will anyone know, never will i say. never will i take the risk to recall my past. Before i get involved in my past ever again. all i could do, is to numb myself, with the work. i hate it when things arent going the way i want. i don't expect 100% going the way i want. but at least, when things are important, when things are urgent. you can blame me for anything... you can blame me for all the mistakes. but please, dun blame me for having celebrity crushes. cause, when i'm feeling down. when i have no one to trust when i have no one to turn to when i can't do anything to solve the problem, all i could do, is to turn to them. to recall the encouraging words they said. to listen to their music, to watch their drama. it helps when they bring me smiles. it helps when they make me calm down. it really helps, cause they showed me, there's two ways of looking at things. and if i choose the negative way, i'd live a life of regrets. Life is mine. if i could choose, why not the positive way? if i could choose to smile, why should i frown? but in life, there's too many things blocking me from choosing that option. friends do not know how much they can influence me. because it really depends. i hate it when i'm feeling down. and everything starts to go against me. ...人生可以有后悔、但不能有遗憾... at times i'll have this urge to explain everything. everything that you misunderstood. but i've said it loads of time. whats the point... 你坚持着你的版本我没力气争执误会了听错了随你编故事心碎了无所谓再伤心一次心碎了就再让你最后一次好累,好累了... 我多么希望,此生次刻,我不在这里... 我多么希望,这世界从没有过我的存在... 如果我是铁打的人,那该有多好... ... Labels: BLOG 文章, FEELING 心情 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << My Lucky Star cast on WQYL on Mar 10, 2007 part 1/7 date : Saturday, May 30, 2009 time : 3:59 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl haha, they are so cute... LOL. xiao zhi got the very baby expression in other parts. hahas... >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << Jimmy Lin - his new restaurant in the news, Dec 2, 2007 date : time : 2:00 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl OHMYTIAN! I WANT TO GO TAIPEI DE JING HUA CHENG! LIKE... AWWWWW, THE ENVIRONMENT LOOKS SO NICE... AND THE FOOD ALSO! THE MENU IS KOR MAKE ONE LEH! AND THE RECIPE... AWWWWWWW~ SOMEONE GET ME TO TAIPEI... PLEASSSSEEEEEE... >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << Jimmy Lin and his Ferrari F430 part 1 of 2 date : time : 1:59 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl i think i'll go crazzeee if i ever get to hop on any of his sports car... esp this ferrari F430. i'm drowning in a pool of vinegar... NOW, RIGHT NOW! T____T >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << My Lucky Star 放羊的星星 [20 Kiss] Jimmy Lin Yoo Hana date : Friday, May 29, 2009 time : 10:07 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl HAHHAHHAH. LOL. all the twenty kisses. LOL. this is so cool lah. hahas. but you'll understand only if you watch the show lah. hahas. >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date : Thursday, May 28, 2009 time : 10:05 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl 我的人生不允许任何的遗憾,只能接受后悔的事实. 有时,一个人强言欢笑久了,是会得内伤的... 我宁愿独自离去,也不想看见你一个人离我越来越遥远我想把你最后为我许下的承诺给取消. Remember the days i had with you on the beach. Remember the sunset we watched together. Remember the sand castle we built. Remember the promise we made. Remember the sun as the witness of our love. Remember the ring we buried in the sand. Remember we vouched to love each other till death. After all that, we're still back to the old us. we're just like strangers on the road... 虽然很短斬,但那总是你留给我最好的回忆. 也许,那会是我一生中,最甜的回忆 :] 就算是用绳子绑住那个人,也栓不住他的心. 与其看着被线条栓住的风筝,不如大方一点. 解开线,让风筝在天空自由地翱翔,寻找属于自己的那颗星星. 风筝,失去了风,就自然而然地失去了方向感. 线条虽然会帮助风筝找到方向感. 但它总会绑住风筝. 要懂得放手. 当风来了,就该解开线条,让风筝回到风的身边. 不管多么地痛,多么地不舍,也应该了解,那是对它好的. 因为爱得太深,所以选择了放开对方的手. 时间能把伤口愈合. 但它不能帮我把心拼好. 我多么想把时间回转到当时的我们. 我多么希望我能摆脱没有你的世界. 我多么渴望这一次的爱情会是完美的. 我多么想要回到从前. 如果人生能够重来, 我不会选择认识你. 至少,我们还是能当好朋友. 至少,我的心还会是完整的. 我好想告诉你,我还是好想你. 两条路,只能选择一条. 看起来两条都是通往一样的地方. 但事实上,它们是通往两个完全不同的世界. 路途很遥远. 也许,我们就是在途中迷失了方向,失去了对方. 我们选择了不同的路. So we ended up in two different worlds. Labels: BLOG 文章, FEELING 心情 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date : Sunday, May 24, 2009 time : 1:42 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl 难堪的伤心的我们的故事你坚持着你的版本我没力气争执误会了听错了随你编故事心碎了无所谓再伤心一次心碎了就再让你最后一次想念的,甜蜜的,痛苦的,我们的故事. 如果解释无法挽救,我宁愿让你乱编故事. 如果编故事会让自己好过,你会吗? 如果找出一百的借口,会让自己忘记他,你愿意吗? 如果大哭一场后,事情还是没解决,你会吗? 如果坚持不哭,会有办法解决问题,你会吗? 如果知道装坚强很辛苦,你会吗? 为了不在受到伤害,你愿意做铁打的星星吗? 如果当铁打的星星很辛苦,但会让自己很坚强,你愿意吗? 如果做铁打的星星不能掉眼泪,只能乐观地面对事情,你愿意吗? 如果铁打的星星有一天,融化了,怎么办? 如果铁打的星星有一天,找不到活在世上的意思,怎么办? 如果...如果... 这么多的如果. 要不如问一问自己活在世上的意思是什么. 如果没有意思,那活着,也没意义. 为什么我们的故事不能想童话世界那样? 我总是习惯回到自己的那个角落. 本来角落不属于我的. 但自从他走了以后. 那角落,总是缺乏那一道光线. 但我却不愿意. 把另一个人带到那角落里. 没有光线,我就看不到自己的阴影. 那也许是逃避. 但,我就是选择了逃避. 完美的才是真正的不完美. 我不喜欢被误解. 但也不喜欢解释. 解释了又能怎样? 还不是永远湖不到以前那样. 如果那是他的选择. 如果那是他编的故事. 因为爱他,我愿意尊重这些. Labels: BLOG 文章, FEELING 心情 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date : time : 11:10 AM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl 林志穎-駕照看一下 Lyrics: everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break 爱是种享受(享受是小偷不偷白不偷) 最怕要死不活(要死又不活还不如放手) 心就该冲动(原始的冲动冲动到放纵) 快用电击复活(废话少说) 有人说爱是付出爱是占有爱是想像的禁果你想专一又想自由白天黑夜分开过七○罗唆八○代沟九○后的猜不透诱惑无限有了就想要更多爱是空屋爱是跑车爱是钻石和承诺你要治安又要乐透辛苦不劳而获因为相爱所以了解因为了解而分手请你出示驾照证明没喝酒 everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break 车最怕人偷(享受是小偷不偷白不偷) 找回也想脱手(要死又不活还不如放手) 你想要放纵(原始的冲动冲动到放纵) 行别让她看破(废话少说) 有人说爱是付出爱是占有爱是想像的禁果你想专一又想自由白天黑夜分开过七○罗唆八○代沟九○后的猜不透诱惑无限有了就想要更多爱是空屋爱是跑车爱是钻石和承诺你要治安又要乐透辛苦不劳而获因为相爱所以了解因为了解而分手请你出示驾照证明没喝酒 everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break 爱是空屋爱是跑车爱是钻石和承诺你要治安又要乐透辛苦不劳而获因为相爱所以了解因为了解而分手请你出示驾照证明没喝酒请你出示驾照证明没喝酒请你出示驾照证明没喝酒 everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break everybody needs a break not every body needs to break This song de dance is freaking nice. and and and. HE WEAR THE HAT SO SHUAI AND CUTE! AHHHH! LOL. OMG LARH! in this mv... he's so.. awwww. so cute. his cars are like.. WOAH! T^T Beginning to fall in love with this song. hahahas. 林志穎 - 我還在等你 Lyrics: 最喜欢带着你开着车一起看风景背对背靠着你吹着风看水中倒影你爱听的歌曲我每天不断的在听只是想寻找你的痕迹我还在这里等你没忘记我们的约定要一起去旅行走遍世界各地留下我们的足迹梦中的爱情多美丽我还在这里等你你是不是已经忘记要一起摘星星闭上眼转过头去才发现失去你 最喜欢带着你开着车一起看风景背对背靠着你吹着风看水中倒影你爱听的歌曲我每天不断的在听只是想寻找你的痕迹我还在这里等你没忘记我们的约定要一起去旅行走遍世界各地留下我们的足迹梦中的爱情多美丽我还在这里等你你是不是已经忘记要一起摘星星闭上眼转过头去才发现失去你 我还在这里等你没忘记我们的约定要一起去旅行走遍世界各地留下我们的足迹梦中的爱情多美丽我还在这里等你你是不是已经忘记要一起摘星星闭上眼转过头去才发现失去你 想找个人告诉你我真的很想你 He looks so 温柔 in this mv... this song makes people emo can... if you really listen to the lyrics... 林志穎-擋不住我 Lyrics: 喔ㄟ喔ㄟ喔喔ㄟ喔喔ㄟ喔喔ㄟ喔ㄟ喔喔ㄟ喔梦想是一种表态快乐是一项专才抬头挺胸把勇气装满你口袋无人能挡停不下来油门加快只要high 你要fly 喔～into the sky 自己的舞台喔ㄟ喔喔ㄟ喔ㄟ喔喔ㄟ喔不要再等待规矩别太规矩管他什么立正站好还要向右看齐太多框框又太无趣只好乖乖在家里盯着电视机穿上闪亮的新衣发动引擎飞车冲出去节奏冲撞我的心追梦我最行看左看右看前看后看尽头只要我能坚持到最后我的世界不需要别人来懂我自己的感动怪天怪地怪东怪西怪星座永远只能在原地停留我的梦想长了翅膀往前冲谁都挡不住我 AWWWW, kor is so cute :] he sounded and looked funny the first time i watched this mv. hahas. but after tha, realised he's so freaking cute! LOL. his 法拉利F430 is so freaking nice! the door open that time damn cool lah! OMG! I WANT LARH! XDDD. he's dance is so freaking cool! HAHAs. he wear shades sooo... awww, shuuaaaiiii XDDDD 编故事 (Live) - Jimmy Lin 林志颖 Lyrics: 一直不在乎却又不放手我猜你更需要自由我可以退一步也可以往前走看你心情眼色等候拥抱一次又一次感动一次多一次美好日子在一开始误解一次让一次坚持一次错一次美好日子随风而逝美丽的深刻的我们的故事却变成了沉重负担我们面对的痴误会了听错了开始编故事你和我分手是因为我固执拥抱一次又一次感动一次多一次美好日子在一开始误解一次让一次坚持一次错一次美好日子随风而逝美丽的深刻的我们的故事却变成了沉重负担我们面对的痴误会了听错了开始编故事你和我分手是因为我固执难堪的伤心的我们的故事你坚持着你的版本我没力气坚持误会了听错了随你编故事心碎了无所谓再伤心一次心碎了就再让你最后一次 :] finally completed :] YAY! :}}} i want to see him live~~~ someone~~~ HELP! hahas. just once, i'll be happy enough! :} ohhh, went to ebay to find his stuffs... at first saw this.. fang yang de xing xing that ear stud... the sapphire one... then saw the price 0.99 then... i thought shipping fee maybe ard 2 or 3 cause the item is in singapore too.. then saw the price "8" i was like.. WTH~ and its. US8 T___T then go look at the payment mode... its by paypal or something... cannot meet up kind... soooo.. shuaaaaa~ forget it lahhh. T___T got the SOMNUS BRACELET ALSO! ahhhh! its so freaking nice larhx T^T then i saw this Asian pop TV Idol singer JJ Lin microphone Necklace... its like... so cute larh! the necklace! then cost 18 bucks only lah! i want leh. its those kind long long big big one ehhh T^T but like... i no card lehhh T^T then... blogshoppppssss also don't have. nowadays blogshops varieties so little can T^T i want KOR'S 挡不住我 album ehhhh. i want i really want D: mom say she'll help me buy the shows kor acted in, if she saw. hahas. so i'm gonna give her that whole list of shows he acted in. HUAHAHHAHA... but got some... was even before i was born. HAHAHHA. i want watch the qi tian da sheng sun wu kong one ehhh. D: awww, i miss my fang yang de xing xing. hahas. korrrrrrr~ and korkor~~~ me miss both of you T^T btw, was talking to venus ytd night... and i just rmb i slapped ZQ like... dunno how any times alr XD suddenly feel so mean. but its not exactly slap larh. and the thing is, after i slap him, he still smile. i was like :O wth!? i slap u, u smile? LOL can. ohhhh, got one time, i playing with chicken marh. then she keep poking me. then stupid ZQ suddenly from the back poke me. then he poke nonstop larhx T__T then i damn pissed off i keep telling him stop he dun want. then chicken poke me he poke me.. like left and right. then i so pissed. then i cant possibly slap my precious chicken right... so i slap ZQ. HAHAH. oh man, i so fierce one ah O.o but he no reaction, so i dun care. HUAHAHAHA. then... the rest, i forgot the reason. HAHHAHAHAHAs. XP i soooo meeeannnnn. but he mean first one... ohhh, help me think of nickname for me larh. LOL. he like name out alot... like... 美女[i scold him blind XD] then like... 三八,猪头... idk. then got alot more. hahas. then i tell him call me san ba O.o then he really say ehhh O.o hahas. nvm uh, i tell him to say one. LOL. oh yah, then he started saying alot of nicknames again T__T then he called me dear, darling. i was like.. wth? then i ask him to shut your mouth and just call me san ba and zhu tou. hahas. then he say call me dear more shuang. then i give him that one eye big one eye small look.oh oh, i realise everytime before i want to slap him, i'll give him that look. HAHAs. maybe all thanks to KOR larh. in the fang yang de xing xing, he keep having that look can... lucky he stop larh, if not i slap him again hahas. ohhh ohhh, he made this joke.. HAHAH. only me and venus know... he himself also dunno. cause i was telling him 本小姐今天心情不好,你不要烦我. hahas. then after that, you know what he say? he go call me "本小姐" at first i thought i hear wrong larh. so i ask him like what you call me? then he say "你跟才不是叫自己本小姐咯" i was like... "dot dot dot" kay, nvm. hahas. i laugh like crap can. LOL. ... 爱不分年龄好不好... 不知道就不要乱说... Labels: BLOG 文章, Jimmy 林志颖, SCHOOL 学校 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << Jimmy Lin and JJ Lin talked about cars part 1 of 5 date : Saturday, May 23, 2009 time : 3:37 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl hahahas. LOL. their cute lah... Kor got so excited when he was talking about cars... while KORKOR... looks abit... bored? idk. hahas. :] enjoooyyyy. both shuai ges in one show :] so shiok. hahas. both kors are so pro and talented :}}} >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << 林心如和林志颖（break-up lover) date : time : 2:24 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl woah, they're sweet together! D: 但始终,他们还是分开了... >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << JJ林俊杰的创作-林志颖-编故事 date : time : 2:24 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl 突然发现,这首歌,其实好好听哦... >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << Beijing 2008 Games: One World, One Dream date : time : 2:24 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl AWWW~ KOR is so cute~ he's so 顽皮. HAHAHAS. anw, i didn't know he went to the Beijing Olympics Concert~ HAHAs. nvm, shall continue with my videos :] >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date : Saturday, May 16, 2009 time : 6:36 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl 我们的纪念-李雅微《2007年放羊的星星插曲》数不清的泪我又哭了好几回幻化成蝶停留在这片落叶被风化的雪埋藏在千年以前我用尽一生的思念只为等着你出现回忆渐渐凋谢落在我身边唤不醒原来还跳动的画面就让我留在轮回的边缘等一道光线看见某年某月我们之间曾经说过的预言就让他带走你的那瞬间成为我们的纪念谁能发现我的世界曾经有过你的脸数不清的泪我又哭了好几回幻化成蝶停留在这片落叶被风化的雪埋藏在千年以前我用尽一生的思念只为等着你出现回忆渐渐凋谢落在我身边唤不醒原来还跳动的画面就让我留在轮回的边缘等一道光线看见某年某月我们之间曾经说过的预言就让他带走你的那瞬间成为我们的纪念谁能发现我的世界曾经有过你的脸就让我留在轮回的边缘等一道光线看见某年某月我们之间曾经有过的预言就让他带走你的那瞬间成为我们的纪念谁能发现我的世界曾经有过你的脸 Labels: BLOG 文章, LYRICS 歌词 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date : Friday, May 15, 2009 time : 1:37 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl 1. Your ex is on the side of the road, on fire. What do you do? - save him out ? i won't want to die with him. HAHAS. 2.Your best friend tells you (s)he's pregnant. What is your reaction? - it's not funny, you know. 3.When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? - slap? 4. Congratulations! You just had a son. What's his name? - Your ass. 5. Congratulations! You just had a daughter. What's her name? - smack your face. 6. What are you craving right now? - go out, celebrate, go KBOX! :] 7. What was the last thing you cried about? - watching my favourite show O.o 8. When you buy something and your change is a penny, do you keep it? - yeah. 9. What color is your tissue box? - got green, blue, yellow, pink. HAHAs. 10. Is there a ceiling fan in your room & if so does it have dust on it? - noooo. 11. What is the last voice mail you received about? - ohhh, there wasnt enough time for the person to hang up. HAHAHs. 12. Scariest thing you've experienced in the last year? - O.o cant rmb 13.Have you ever had a garage sale? - huh? 14. What is the last beverage you had? - HONEY MILK TEA WITHOUT PEARL! ;] 15. Are you happy right now? - yes because exam's over. no because of this stupid weather. 16. Who came over last night? - chong kel vin. LOL. awhile nia. 17. Do you drink energy drinks? - only pink dolphin~ 18. Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted? - naahh 19. Dark or light jeans? - dark 20. What was the last movie you watched at home? - horror movie :] 21. What is in your pocket? - the cloth. LOL 25. When is your birthday? - 12th dec 26.What are you going to do after this? - go down to meet my niece. HAHAHAH. 27. Who was the last person you went shopping with? - mum O.o 28. What about your favorite dessert? - i'm not pickyyy~ 29. Do you have the same name as one of your relatives? - nope. 30. Do you like pickles? - neutral 31. Is someone in love with you? - not sure. 32. What color is your couch? - brown 33. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member? - nopeeee 34. Does someone like you right now? - i cant confirm. 35. Do you know anyone in jail/prison? - ur dad 36. Who was the last person to send you a text message? - xi yu. 37. How many hours did you sleep for last night? - 6. 38. Do you swear at your parents? - noppee 39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? - dun think so. 40. What is the last thing you spent money on? - honey milk tea 41. Name one thing no one can ever take away from you? - my soul. 42. What is the last thing you ate that had onions in it? - hmmm, good question. 43. Crunchy or Puffy Cheetos? - Crunchy. 44. Have you ever blocked someone from facebook? - yeahhh~ 45. Who was it? - haha, was MOM. lol. 46. Do you wear a name tag at work? - SCHOOL FORCED US TO! 47. What color is your iPod? - white :] its mp3, dude. 48. What is your favorite key chain on your keys?? - their just different in terms of colours. lol. 49. What were you doing at midnight last night? - i forgot O.o 50. If the last person you kissed said that you were the only one they wanted, would you believe them? - guys just love to sweet talk girls. 51. Do you believe that any of your ex's think about you? - idk. 52. Would you date someone 8 years older than you? - if there's love, definitely. i wouldn't mind even if he's more than 10 years older. lol. 53. What were you doing at 1am this morning? - sleeping lah 54. Will your next kiss be a mistake? - never. 55. Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize? - yeah. 56. Do you know a secret about your ex and if he/she pisses you off will you tell? - nope. 57. What's with you and the last person you kissed? - we're like strangers now. 58. Have you ever had your heart broken? If so how many times? How did it feel? - dun so KPO. 59. What time did you wake up this morning? - 6.AM! 60. What's on your bed right now? - my pillows :] 61. Are you someone who worries too often? - guess so. 62. Do you like to cuddle/snuggle? - yeah yeah! :] 64. What color is your hair? - black~ 65. Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you? - defnitely. i'll explain all the mistakes. 66. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now? - yeah. but that's just, so impossible. 67. Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? - yeah, and it felt great. 68. Are you wasting your time on someone? - idk. 69. Are you excited about anything today? - nope. 70. On average, what do you think you cry the most about? - when there's cuo zhe? 71. What does the newest text message in your inbox say? - lol. 73. Who are 5 people your last texts are from? - huh? 74. Do you currently have a hickey? - wth is that 75. Last person you texted? - xi yu 76. Miss anyone? - yeahs. 77. Have you ever skipped class? - nope. 78. What's the longest you've ever talked on the phone? - 2 hours. 79. How many people are you texting? - 1 80. Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell? - uhh, guess so. 81. Where was the last place you went? - west mall. 82. Let's be honest, have you ever been played by someone? - nahhh. 83. Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a M? - no, why mustit be M? 84. Who is the last person that called you and what did they say? - xi yu. i was in the lift, it was so quiet. then she went "WHERE ARE YOU!" 85. Do you trust all your friends? - not all. 86. Do you know anyone that smokes pot? - no 87. Are you usually wide awake in the morning? - nope. feel like sleeping now O.o 88. If you could change your eye color what would it be? - brown 89. Do you dance in the car? - no T__T 90. Do you always answer your phone? - nahh, silent mode. HAHAs. 91. Would you like to be in a relationship right now? - not interested. 92. Who's hoodie did you wear last? - mine. 93. Do you sleep on your stomach? - huh? 94. Is love really a beautiful thing? - not all the time 95. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? - ii said idk T__T 96. Are you in a good mood right now? - nope. 97. Is there a guy/girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you? - most, but not all. 98. Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again? - idk, idc. 99. Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now? - what a question, i'm asking. lol. 100. How many people on your top friends have you slept in the same bed with? - i forgot. lol. 101. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap? - no T__T 102. What are you listening to? - DUI WANG by Jimmy lin zhi ying :] 103. Is there a difference between the word 'best friend' and 'friend'? - BIG difference. 104. When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug? - ermm, ohhh, crap i forgot the date D: 105. Can you touch your toes? - why not. 106. Do you have any interesting tattoos/piercings? - whats so interesting about ear piercings? lol. 107. What were you doing at midnight last night? - sleeping? idk. 108. What's your favorite season? - winter. 109. Last thing you ate/drank? - honey milk tea. 110. How many siblings do you have? - one. 111. Needles aren't so horrible? - yeah 112. What time did you go to bed last night? - 2330, i think. 113. Have you ever made out in a bathroom? - wth, i'm younggg :}}} 115. What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had? - i said HMT! 116. Are you scared of spiders? - VERY! 117. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? - obvious. 118. Ever been swimming in a lake or river? - nope. 119. Last person you drove with in a car? - kelvin, was months ago. LOL. 120. Who should start the kiss, the girl or the guy? - the guy. lol. 121. What did you last buy? - HMT 122. What's irritating you right now? - this quiz. 123. What radio station(s) do you listen to? - YES 93.3 FM! :]]]] 124. Are you afraid of the dark? - sometimes, when i'm feeling lost. 125. Are you listening to music right now? - yesh! 126. Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? - yeah. 127. Do you get distracted easily? - very 128. Was this the best year of your life? - nope. 129. Who are your best friends? - idk, this is so confusing. 130. What was going through your mind during your last kiss? - O.o 131. Is it easier to forgive or forget? - forgive. 132. Do you flirt a lot? - definitely not T__T 133. Would you live with someone without marrying them? - depends on the person. 134. Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying? - ahhhh. i forgot O.o 135. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? - nope. 136. Who was the last person that made you feel safe? - that person. 137. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? - yeahh. 138. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? - was an incident. 139. Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? - idk. 140. What did you do yesterday? - watch my fav show :] 141. What time did you go to bed at and when did you wake up? - 2330 and 0600 142. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? - yeah. 143. Believe in love at first sight? - love is blind. O.o 144. What phrase or saying do you use the most? - 我是铁打的星星. 47. Who is your favorite person to talk to online? - mommeh :] 148. Who is your favorite person to talk to offline? - idk O.o 149. What’s your favorite flavor of ice cream? - cookies and cream. 150. What’s your biggest fear? - someone dying~ 151. Would you rather write in pen or pencil? - pen. 152. Peppermint or spearmint? - hate them 153. Do you like your handwriting? - i hate it. 154. When did you last kiss someone on the cheek? - decades ago? 155. Which shoe do you put on first? - right, i think 156. What was the last thing that made you smile? - its a person :] 157. Are you afraid of dying? - nahhh, wishing to. 158. Who would you rather be with right now? - i can live without anyone. 159. Do you prefer holding hands or kissing? - hugging :] 160. If an unstoppable force meets an immovable object, what happens? - heaheeeaaaaa. LOL. 161. Who was the last person to slap your butt? - O.o i forgot. 162. Do you sunburn easily? - very, but never get tanned. LOL. 163. Have you ever worn lipstick before? - duh. 164. What do you say to the statement “Love is suicide." - its true lah. 165. What do you think of when you hear the word “plume”? - plum? 166. When was the last time you were told you were beautiful? - ahhh, some days ago? 167. Have you ever seen a dead body? - yesh 168. Are most of your friends virgin? - i think so? lol. 169. Warm up near the fire or cuddle under the stars? - awww, so nice :] i want i want! 170. What is the weirdest moment between you and your current boyfriend/girlfriend? - i'm single, yet unavailable :] 171. Have you ever bitten someone else’s tongue? - ahhhh, nope, my friend did. HAHAHA! u know who u areee! 172. Do you prefer short or long hair on the opposite sex? - erm. not too short, not too long. like around Jimmy's and JJ's hairlength is the best. hahas. 173. Have you ever been given an engagement ring? - i'm still young, dude. 174. What would you do if you opened your door to a dead person? - huh... 175. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? - ahhh, one of SUJU's member. LOL. WOAH! I COMPLETED THIS QUIZ! HAHA. and mom's not home yet, i cant go out! LOL. and i'm hating the weather out there, right now. HAHAs. my rabbit must be burning now. poor rabbit with alot of furs. LOL. Labels: BLOG 文章, Quiz >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date : Thursday, May 14, 2009 time : 5:10 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl my current handphone wallpaper. i get the urge to watch the show again everytime, when i look at my handphone. HUAHAHAHA. XDDDD. still, not getting over my craze on Kor :] KOR is Jimmy Lin Chih Ying. KORKOR is wayne lim jun jie :] LOL. got difference one~ LOL. my current comp wallpaper~ :}}}}} so shuai @_____@ this was during the recent meet up... actually not really recent. lol. nvm.~ it was plainly for fun, yeahh. HAHAA. anw, she had many attempts to eat me up. LOL. what an impossible thing. but, she mangaed to EAT me ! LOL. look for yourself~ hahas. anw, that was, when i was willing to let her eat me up. and she's willing to eat me up. LOL. so weird can~ hahas. however, i went back home in A PIECE. lol. you know, she pieced me back afterwards. okay, i'm so crap~ i should stop this. cause i really had nth to do. and i told her i'd post this on blog. LOL. exams are overrrrr. i mean, tmr :}}}} thennnn, can go celebrateee :] eh wait, maybe not. chicken, my zhai nv, wants to go home. LOL. maybe i should call her ah zhai? oh wait, will she mind? kay, nvm. XI YU!!!! I WANT GO CITY HALL THAT WHATEVER PLACE! LOL. saving money in process lurh~~~ JIA YOU JIA YOU! LOL. getting abit pissed off with faceook alr~ LOL. nvm, i shall wait for turtle's quiz. hahas. totally addicted to 放羊的星星啦! and and and, Jimmy LZY's 对望. :}}}}}} lending venus the show tmr. i watch two times straight alr. i think if i watch again, my mom will kill me. and if i get not good results, i think mom will blame it on kor~ ohhh yahhh. maybe i should ask venus keep longer. in case i get bad results. then later mom want to confiscate that show. LOL. i'll cry if she do that! HAHAS! or maybe i'll buy another new box :}}}} i really super love that show can. idk why it's like... not very popular loh. LOL. the nicest show i've ever watched. LOL. awwwww. LZY treat you hana so good~ T^T and and and, OMG LAH! zhong tian qi is like.. my ideal boyfriend T___T he's like.. aww, so cute in the show~~ AWWWWWWW !!! at the 2nd part i thought he become bad guy lorhx! actually he never lah! LOL. and, i like his that... angry expression. then his mouth will close, then the jaws start moving. LOL! so cute lah! and.. HE KNOW HOW TO MAKE ONE EYE BIG ONE EYE SMALL! lol. so cute lah! OMG! HE SO CUTEEE! AHHH! better dun let mom see this. HAHHHAHAHA. OMG, venus havent finish creating her quiz T___T venus ahhh venusss. ohh nooo, turtle ahh turtleeee~ Labels: BLOG 文章, Friends 朋友, Jimmy 林志颖 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date : Wednesday, May 13, 2009 time : 5:22 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl idk what to say, or even where to start. all i ever wish is for life to get back to normal. i'd rather go on my star-chasing life. at least i wouldn't feel down like now. 两个相爱的人... 为什么,到现在,我还是一个人? 遥远的星光,惦记着你. 突然想起在天涯海角的你. 我愿意用我的全部,换你,永远陪在我身旁. 望着满天的星星,我只能祷告,希望这份爱值得相信. 遥远的星光,离我一千多公里的你,过得怎样? 我的等待,总是白费. 期待,总是失望. 我们只能想念,不能有所期待. 但我却不想放弃. 直到我找到在某个角落哭泣的你. 确定你是否和以前一样,过着有钱公子的生活. 我曾对你许下个承诺. 不管你在哪里,我都会陪着你. 我答应你,那是最后一次. 唯一要隐瞒的,就是我埋藏在心地的感情. 有一种爱,是无限的. 她的温柔,也许是悲伤的. 她的放弃,是有苦衷的. 你的误会,是她遗憾的. 你后悔的,是她珍惜的. 有一种爱,是透明的. 埋藏在心底,是你看不到的. 感觉不到,是因为你的固执. 路途很遥远,我很想放弃. 途中,好多困难,我好想哭. 遇到很多挫折,我好想死. 我不是你眼中那从不示弱的自己. 其实,真正的自己,比谁都还脆弱. 但,不可以. 我是铁打的星星. 曾有人对我说,就算是最坚强的树,有一天,它还是会倒下. 铁,不是什么都能抵抗的. 真正的失败,是当自己放弃了自己. 只有爱与光明能够拯救缺乏爱的小孩. 我不想在拼命地过好生活,最后把自己弄的伤痕累累. 世界上,有很多种爱. 但,为什么,男女朋友的爱,往往比其他的来的痛. 不,我是铁打的星星, 我,不能落泪. 也许,我的任性,我的固执,都是不必要的. Labels: BLOG 文章, FEELING 心情 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date : Sunday, May 10, 2009 time : 11:16 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl 不被祝福的爱情,能够继续吗? 我们属于两个不同世界的人. 为了我的梦想,我不能牺牲你. 为了你的未来,我无法不放弃你. 对不起,我没遵守诺言. 不能和你在一起. 为了让你忘记我,就算我当坏人,我也愿意. 这是我最终的决定. 离开我,你会有一万中可能. 和我在一起,你只有一种可能,那就是痛苦. 不能眼睁睁看你受苦. 我不想为了我的固执,而毁了你的人生. 这,是我唯一爱你的方法. <3 Labels: BLOG 文章, FEELING 心情 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date : Saturday, May 9, 2009 time : 8:28 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl Some research on my latest addiction. 大帅哥-林志颖. :} shocked to know he's already 35. OMG, so damn shocked larh. i thought he twenty plus T^T finally completed the "My lucky star" :] it was a show bought two years ago, i think. LOL. but didn't really bothered about it. until my mom came to ask me to watch the first episode. i used to think that show was boring like crap. shocked to find out... its such a touching show. love it even more than yuan lai wo bu shuai and ai jiu zai yi qi. OMG can. he's the second one who make me fall in love so much lah! first one of course is JJ. LOL. now first is still JJ, second is JIMMY! :] 3rd is mayday ah shin. LOL. i can't believe he really is 赛车手 can! 赛车is damn freaking cool lah! i thought is only in the show then he act as he know how to 赛车 loh. and... found loads of amazing stuffs about him. 我才发现,他的成就,比JJ还多. All those "JJ GOT A MEDAL" and stuffs i boast about here. are like... not much as compared to his. its like.. OMG can. today so damn busy... will post maybe, tomorrow? need to go watch my ai jiu zhai yi qi :] LOL. too obsessed with LIN ZHI YING ALREADY! i can't believe when i watched the show, i cried more than the actors. LOL. i'm serious. cause i was in the room alone, so i can cry. LOL. so freaking touching lah! OMG! i will never get sick of watching it can! OMG OMG OMG! Lin Zhi Ying is like an ideal boyfriend LAH! LOL! i mean to me? LOL. really loh! he's like.. awwwww, so sweet and nice in the show. and i believe he is in real life too. hahas. OMGOMGOMG. ideal boyfriend! LOL. liu he na is so fortunate to shoot this drama with him! OMGOMGOMG! if i not wrong he also got shoot ying ye 3 jia 1. OMGOMGOMG! i want go watch! LOL. i only heard like... one of lin zhi ying's songs. ONLY ONE LEH! T^T today no time mahhh. and what you're hearing from my blog now is sang by him! :] somehow i find his voice so man, so strong, so got feeling :}}} i'm falling in love with him like thisss---> @_________@ mom pointed out a good point to me when i told her i love lin zhi ying. she say those guys i like are like... eyes not too big, then when they smile, they have this very sweet look. LOL! TURE TRUE! and i actually didn't realise. LOL... off to my ai jiu zhai yi qi! HAHA! i miss alot already T___T pictures i found about lin zhi ying, SO SHUAI SO SHUAI SO SHUAI! HE CAN SING, CAN ACT, CAN RACE CARS, CUTE, HANDSOME[I MEAN REALLY!] OMG! more positive things i'm gonna find. to be revealed tomorrow if i have the time. I SO FREAKING LOVE THIS EXPRESSION LAH! OMG!!!! RACE CAR DE KING :}}}} SO SHUAI SO SHUAI SO SHUAI! HE WAS DOING SOME CHARITY THING! :}}}}} 我也爱你~~~~ @__________________________________@ 为什么要让我爱上你? LOL! @____________________@ My Heart Just Melted~ AWWWWWWWWWWWWW! @_____@ 不要用那种眼神看我~OMG! He have a pair of SHINYYYYYYY EYES! :] i love it! OMG, I WANT CONTACTS! lol. my all-time favourite :] my current computer wallpaper. LOL. end :] byee byyeeee Labels: BLOG 文章, Jimmy 林志颖 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE << date : Wednesday, May 6, 2009 time : 6:23 PM Posted By : SMUDGEgirl 从来没想过, 不能在和你牵手. 从来没想过, 会和你分手. ******************************* 我后悔当初那么地认识你. 后悔当初和你那么亲. 后悔当初为何不包容你. 后悔当初,所做过的一切. 我知道你恨我. 就算是我最后的要求, 跟我说,你恨我的理由. 我不想不明不白和你分开. 至少让我走得开心. 人总爱说每个人都不完美. 但人总爱在背后说他人的不完美. 每个人总爱别人包容自己的不完美. 但也从没试过去包容他人的不完美. 我不否认. 我也是人. 有自己的不完美. 有时不是故意不包容他人的不完美. 而是无意中伤害到他人. 今天,我决定了. 决定从今天起,开始我新的生活. FORGIVE AND FORGET 是我的原则. 想把过去的抛开. 旧的不去,新的不来. XiYu: first, sorry. cause i used to hate you, serious. even this year. but what i've learnt is to forgive and forget. everyone's flawed. i guess i was too demanding. so, sorry. but don't worry... June Holidays... MUAAHHAHAHAH! :] 某人 [you know who you are] : 如果可以让时间回转,我不愿那么认识你. I'd rather be just friends. than good friends. 太了解你了. It happened so naturally, without even pickering. yes, i dont deny, i used to hate you. but i shouldnt anymore. we understand each other so much, yet we had to be enemies. we acting like strangers. who understand each other so much. i miss those days, really. idk if it's my fault or was it yours. you've changed, you'd really. even your closest friend agrees with me. idk what's going in your mind. i'm beginning to feel the ___ i knew once was another person. i feel weird. awkward. disappointed. sad. idk, feelings are just mixed. but even though, i don't blame you. i really don't. 从今天起,我会试着去包容他人的不完美. -Flawed Labels: BLOG 文章, FEELING 心情 >> Still Moving UnDer GunfirE <<	Archives By month: April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 Recently By post : Thanks for not talking to me so often anymore.Than... BY2的魔幻表演 by2+2high Life In School We Should Stop Here, Right Here... 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Bribe Me with a SMUDGE tee and you'll get my number. I Don't appreciate insults too. This is my Life, i own it, i live it. Memories are those to be kept deep in the heart, it need not always be shared. 没有人有资格批评我的人生.